1. Walking into Micah's room and seeing his outstretched arms.
2. Love notes from my hubby.
3. Seeing an answered prayer so clearly.
4. When Micah flashes his pearly whites when he is being mischevious.
5. When daddy gets home and Micah can't run fast enough to get to him.
6. When daddy gets home :-)
7. When for no reason at all Micah walks up to give me a kiss.
8. Going for walks at the beginning of Fall, the smell of the cool breeze is breathtaking.
9. When Micah gives me rasberries..like he is doing right now!
10. Talking to my Mom for hours.
11. How Matt understands me without my saying anything.
12. When I am at the gym with my ipod and a song straight from God just speaks to me and I just want to sing! I love that!
13. My boys are my favorite things! I am blessed!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Monday, December 7, 2009
Struggling
I find myself bored and alone a lot of the time. Why is that? I have been trying to have a stronger walk with the Lord, but it has been a big struggle. I keep waiting for some big magical moment where everything just falls into place, my walk with God is strong and I am full of joy. But I am realizing that human relationships don't work like that, why would it work that way with the Lord? Marriages take work and nurturing, commitment, time spent together and talking to one another. These are things I have not really been willing to give to God.
A few weeks ago, my husband and I made the commitment to go back to church consistently, instead of once every couple of months. We have started doing our daily devotions and praying together. We talk more, about everything, and I can really see God's hand working in our personal lives and in our marriage. We talked for about 2 hours one night about doubts and fears, and in church that Sunday I saw my very words up on the screen. The lesson was just what I had talked to my husband about. How amazing is that? God actually does hear me. It has been like this for weeks, he is constantly showing himself to me. It's still hard for me to make the daily commitment, but I am trying. Am I alone in this? I see some lady's at the church that really seem to have it together and I have alienated myself from them. I go to a couple of bible studies and then quit for one reason or another. I have a deep desire to have friends, but I have not allowed myself the opportunity to get to know anyone. I don't really know what is going with me sometimes, but I could really use some extra prayers going upstairs!
A few weeks ago, my husband and I made the commitment to go back to church consistently, instead of once every couple of months. We have started doing our daily devotions and praying together. We talk more, about everything, and I can really see God's hand working in our personal lives and in our marriage. We talked for about 2 hours one night about doubts and fears, and in church that Sunday I saw my very words up on the screen. The lesson was just what I had talked to my husband about. How amazing is that? God actually does hear me. It has been like this for weeks, he is constantly showing himself to me. It's still hard for me to make the daily commitment, but I am trying. Am I alone in this? I see some lady's at the church that really seem to have it together and I have alienated myself from them. I go to a couple of bible studies and then quit for one reason or another. I have a deep desire to have friends, but I have not allowed myself the opportunity to get to know anyone. I don't really know what is going with me sometimes, but I could really use some extra prayers going upstairs!
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